You’re now napping in Autumn;
The doors open, at last.
Gentle breezes rush in;
You’re released, they brush past.
Nap sweetly, my dear.
Float in the crisp air.
Let dew kiss your fingers
And dampen your hair.
Fall ushers such change,
As the Earth needs to rest.
And you, love, must too;
For you’ve done your best.
Bare branches tap the air,
Clouds stretched like cotton,
Glowing harvest moons;
They’re all lessons, in Autumn.
The lesson of faith,
The lesson to cope,
The lesson of love,
And a promise of hope.
Sleep sweet in the breezes.
Sleep sweet in the night.
Wake to find your solace
In the brightest of bright.
—
Chad,
Miss you forever.
Today is just the start.
I took a short nap today and then went to the funeral home to finish your arrangements.
And I saw you, one last time.
You looked peaceful and calm.
Which is what I’ve wished for you so many times over the last few months.
This feels surreal.
I knew it was coming.
But it didn’t make it an easier.
I hoped that it would.
I told the girls that you are gone.
Carys wept. Cailyn was subdued; she wept about an hour later.
My heart breaks for them. They are just too young.
And so am I.
Too young to be a widow.
I just don’t know how to do this.
I will be okay, I know that.
It will just take some work to get there – to the okay part.
I miss you.
I love you.
I wish you were here.
The way you were, before all of this created havoc in our lives.
xoxo
Skye
omg you write so beautiful and everytime i read it, i weep! You r and have been the strongest person i know and i admire you very much! may ur memories and love of Chad last you a life time!
Your soul is so beautiful Skye….This is an amazing, powerful testimony to the incredible love you shared with Chad. Thank you for sharing this incredible journey with the us. May God grant his divine peace on you, and His healing love be with you.
“Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted” Matthew 5:4
Tears in my eyes as I read this.This is so beautiful to read. My prayers are with you Skye, and your family as well as his famuily. Rest in peace Chad, we miss you…
That was beautiful. Amy and I have shed some tears today, thinking of the void the loss of Chad brings to your family and friends. We continue to pray for you all and are glad that Chad does have piece at last. Please let us know if you need anything.
beautiful. just BEAUTIFUL. prayers for strength and comfort. he is free of pain and suffering. XOXO
Crying my eyes out for you and what I can only imagine you must be feeling. So much love and so many hugs being sent to you and your beautiful girls. I wish I could take some of your pain for my own. :*(
My heart just breaks for Chad's three beautiful girls, Skye. Please know that you are loved.
Even though we don't know you personally, a Navy friend had passed along your information..the blog, your photos, your story. I have kept track of your love story. Your love for Chad and your girls. Although this chapter has ended, know your story will continue with your darling, precious girls. My heart aches for you. Sending warm Florida sunshine-y hugs your way.
Jessica
Oh, Skye,
My heart and soul ache for you as you experience the void. Your family and Chad have been in my prayers for weeks, and as Chad went home to his maker, your new journey begins. My prayers will continue to be with you. What a beautiful, lovely person you are to share something so personal with all of us. Thank you for letting us in.
Teva
Your soul is beautiful in deed… as said below. I often find myself lost for words when someone has lost a loved one. Sky your writings haved touched the souls of alot of people. Know that God has a plan for each and everyone of us. That plan may seem hard to see at times but rest easy that it will come to light. You have touched me and I am so saddend by your loss. I have been praying for you and your family. May God be with you and your family.
Wayne Mosley
2 Corinthians 12:9. “My grace is sufficient for thee. My strength is made perfect in weakness”. This is my favorite verse from the Bible and has helped me through so much. I pray God's peace and grace over you and your girls. Trust His infinite wisdom. Be still, and know that He is God.
hugs.
So shocking–I just learned he was sick afew weeks ago—gone so soon–unreal–but now his in Heaven with all the Angels and Jesus… And he has no more pain–thank God…. Skye you are so wonderful as a mom and a wife —- your crown will really shine –one day… so just know many prayers go out to YOU and YOURS and to Chad's Family Side too—so sorry Sandy for your loss too — thoughts and prayers are with you too…….
God Bless you and yours! You have given so much!
Skye, we've never met but I've been following your blog for a while now. My heart aches for you and your girls and I pray for God's comfort on you all in these next difficult days.
My heart aches for you and your family. I realize that the outcome was expected….anticipated whatever, but am sure the reality of it all makes it no easier. I hope you find comfort knowing that Chad is at peace. His body is finally able to rest from the long battle he has fought. Chad seems to have been the type of man that went to great lengths to fight this terrible battle and fought hard. No doubt he loved his family beyond words. You have touched so many lives through this blog..thank you for sharing, teaching me and inspiring me to be a better person. Fondly, Wendy Dunn
Skye…My heart is breaking, however I KNOW with out a doubt you are an amazing, strong, loving, caring, Godly woman! Your strength, and never ending abundent love for your husband is AMAZING. Chad is with our Lord and Savior to never hurt again.. to always feel peace, love and amazing joy. We love you all!
I know this can't be easy for you and the girls. I pray for you all everyday and I pray it gets easier each and everyday! We love you!
Skye–I'm so sorry. Chad leaves his love for you in your heart. And, he takes your love for him with him. Your love for each other will continue to comfort. We are here for you. Please keep that, too.
Your love and strength has been absolutely beautiful. May God continue to be with you and your family as you move forward.
I do not know you ,Chad went to school with my boys, I admire you so very much.I have been following updates and you have given so much to Chad and your family. God has richly blessed you with love, character and Gods grace.I am remembering you and your family in my many thoughts and constant prayers. Memories will be forever, nothing or no one can take those away-God Bless
Skye, I don't personally know you and your family, though I've been following your blog long enough to get a sense of the great love that you and Chad shared. I am praying for your daughters, you and your family and friends during this time of loss. Sending you the deepest love and hopes for you and your daughters that you all may find a small bit of grace in that Chad feels no more pain. Your poem was beautiful, touching and just another example of the wonderful connection between you two. I'm not sure any man has ever been loved more than him, I'm sure he knew it too!
Blessed Be
Skye, I am praying for you and your family during this difficult time. May you find peace and comfort. The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I take refuge; my shield, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower. ~ Psalm 18:2
Julie Hobbs Willet
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We are so close.
Prayers and peace for you all!!!
Stacy Borelli
I am praying for strength for you and your girls now and in the days ahead. You continue to be an amazing family!
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