Category Archives: Chad

When I look at my children, I do not merely see fatherless daughters. At least not anymore. The immediate weeks after his death, I could barely look my girls in their sparkling ocean eyes without sobbing. They remind me so … Continue reading →

Lately, Cailyn has been asking a lot of questions about death. She brings the subject up voluntarily and is so inquisitive. She is just trying to wrap her mind around everything, I know. Earlier in the week, she asked me … Continue reading →

Dear Chad, Six months ago today, I said goodbye to you. Each second of that day is stamped in my heart, written in my eternal memory. Half a year has passed without you. It still, at times, seems unreal. I … Continue reading →

Today, I felt like a nervous high schooler. Knots in my stomach, sweat on my brow. It wasn’t really a big deal. But then again, it is. I applied for the Fall semester at our local community college. I’d made … Continue reading →

April 13, 2000 Each year on our anniversary, Chad and I treated ourselves to a nice night out. We had been dating for three years on this particular anniversary. He had been so busy with his new job that we … Continue reading →

Today we met at Hospice with family and a few dear friends to celebrate Chad’s life. His memorial brick was installed this week near the garden, so we all gathered there to wish him a happy 33rd birthday. The day … Continue reading →

We’ve been blessed with beautiful weather lately. The girls and I have thoroughly enjoyed soaking up the sun and doing absolutely nothing this weekend. We did head to the park yesterday…. Apparently, we had equally beautiful weather like this last … Continue reading →

Chad, I’ve just spent a third of a year without you. Before this, I never could have imagined what a third of a day, a third of a week, a third of a month or a third of a year … Continue reading →

Tonight, the girls and I attended our first group therapy session at hospice. I was a little nervous about going; I wasn’t sure what to expect. There were kids and lots of wives that, like me, that lost their partner … Continue reading →